Countdown to change...9 more shifts

As I round out my full-time status at Rex lots of things go through my head.....I am sure when I get out of the full-time status it will be 'what took me so long'. I kind of have that same American Express feeling, of being in a comfortable place with benefits, but yet not satisfied with what I want to accomplish. So I know everything is going to be fine...just new.

Its kind of heart grabbing to hear people say to me 'please don't go', 'we need you here'. Even Dr. Weiss said 'Aren't you out of here yet....whatever, it's sad'. Wow! From Dr. Weiss? That means alot, even Karen Miller yesterday, who didn't know I had turned in my notice, kept saying 'no!'. THAT is why I need to leave. When you care too much about the people and the place, and get no support from your own management team...it's time to move on. When you have support from staff, the physicians, and even hospital administration that means alot, but when your own department shuns you b/c you say it like it is...kind of sad. Think about how your place of business or even this country would run if everyone was upfront and honest AND said it like it was. Would be a better place, don't you think?

I have been talking for about a year about leaving. Other than hearing my Director tell me 'we don't want you to leave'. Nothing else has been done. Actions speak louder than words. Haven't you heard that before? I guess the kicker was a position being 'created' for a staff person and a job being referred to me from my Director in early December that anyone that knows me knows they wouldn't dream of wasting their breath telling me about it. Kind of a slap in my face. For someone who has been here over 2 years and the only thing that she knows is that I am on the UPC and the Sunshine Committee. Really? Is that ALL I do for the department? Ask ANY staff person, ask ANY physician, hey, why not call Mary Lou Powell, VP Cheif Nursing Officer or better yet call David Strong, President! I bet they could whip out a longer list. Clueless!

I am keeping my foot in the door so that I can still obtain AHA certifications and teach, and see the people I love! I'll miss Rex! Julie is there..a new manager, I hope for the best that she can change things, that things can be different. I hope that for my friends that are there!