29...again....

29, what an awesome number! I think I actually have my kids believing that if you don't have a birthday party, you don't get older. My birthday always seems to start off with a positive attitude and me being in a good mood...which seems to always change and by the end of the day, it ends up being a day which I would just as soon sleep through.

I always look at how I do birthdays for everyone, and I guess there just isn't anyone else in the world like me! I guess for some people, thats a good thing. Not sure this world is big enough for two of me! Probably not!

One of the best birthdays I ever had was when I turned 29, of course. I had worked that day and got home to the kids singing Happy Birthday, a cake, flowers and cards and presents. A friend had gotten the girls a card-making kit, cake and presents and the girls had a blast making a ton of cards. It was a total surprise. A birthday I will never forget. And nothing that I had to tell anyone. He just did it. Totally amazing!

I can never count on Rod to take the girls shopping for my birthday, even though they ask him to take them, I can never count on him for anything like that, including Christmas. Actually I take, that back, he did take them shopping the year before last! You would think that since my birthday is the same date every year, that maybe before the day before my birthday he would do something. This year, he called me on Monday (Oct 12) and said he was going to take the girls shopping on Sunday (which was the day before) when they were at his house, but forgot and Monday he got up and went fishing all day and forgot. Christine actually asked him if he had taken the girls and that is when he remembered that he hadn't.

I guess because he isn't a mother he doesn't get that feeling I get. Yet, he gets Father's Day presents, birthday presents, Christmas presents, without fail. Not one year has gone by that he has not gotten presents and cards from his kids. It's a sinking feeling. And by this time, I am ready for the day to be over. I end up hating the entire day. The best things I had today were tons of Happy Birthday's from all my Facebook friends that I have found. Most are from High School and people I grew up with. THAT alone made my day.

Independance has its downside, thats for sure. I love being by myself, and sometimes when I think that I would love to have someone else around, birthdays come and then it quickly reminds me why I will be by myself. Because, it will never end up like I want it to. Which alot of time I think that about life.....