So yes, I was born 40 years ago today! Under 7 pounds...imagine that. I took today off, not really sure why.. guess I didn't want to be reminded multiple times today how old I am. Wishing things in my life were so different. How many roads do you have to take to find the right one? Guess I've been down too many to think there is one that I am supp to go down that would be the right one. I think alot of times, that if I would just accept that a 'normal' path for me just isn't in my cards. I guess I hate defeat thats why I don't just give in.
I really am happy about being a mom and the fact that I have two wonderful girls (if they could just keep their rooms clean), and the fact that its the ONLY thing that came out of a 20 year marriage to the biggest rectal abcess in the world! I definately learned what a relationship ISNT supposed to be. I never thought that I would actually want to be with someone again because its hard to believe after you have been told for a 20 year marriage that it was all your fault. Not
much faith left in me.
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I look back on these pictures and realized how innocent life was. And realize this is probably what my kids think also. How the daily stressors on the road of life are no fun, not that they are supposed to be, but sometimes the paths turn out differently for different people. I don't think Im one of those that its supposed to ever be 'ok'.
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Enjoy the pics!
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